Friendship or Not

Being a college year 2 student, things do change. Everyone is busy with his/her own stuff, so am I. The less you could meet your friends, the more you find out who your friends really are. Keeping a distance with anyone, all I found out was that beauty comes with distance.
So many friends around, loneliness is still the closest company. You don't know who could be trusted, who could talk to. Can I use "C'est la Vie!" now? That's life! It is so difficult to find someone next to you when you need somebody. Am I being too dependent? I guess so but everyone wanna count on someone in some ways. Dose it make a different with a friend be by your side?

Being Controlled or Not

It's weird to find out that a friend of mine being a little addicted to being controlled. Isn't it crazy? I think so. How come there would be a person who love to be followed around even you are going to class. Isn't it called love? Maybe it is. When you do love someone so much, you just can't do anything without him/her around.
Things would always go to an extreme, when your msg record, timetable and web history are being checked everyday. Who knows?! Sometimes, we just ruined our relationship we cared so much by ourselves and we just didn't even notice. What a shame? Why can't we just take it easy? isn't it so cool to fight with each other all the time? I don't think so. Whatever.

Hurt or Not

It was a kinda bad luck today. I broke my leg. It was hurt really. I cried. It was not just because of the pain, it's because of this emptiness. Where was he when I needed him the most? I have no idea. No matter how many friends you got, they couldn't be there for u anytime. I've known it for a long time. Even for him, he couldn't be there for me neither, that's hurt the most.
I can still smile at my friends when I was trying to tell them I was ok. It seemed fine from the outside but the truth is not just like it seemed sometimes. Who knows? I become pretty good at hiding my own pain. Lessons learned rite?

Break-up or Not

Knowing the break-up of my friends in college, I just got the feeling of fraglie love. They have never really got into any fight in the relationship.
No matter how u love a guy, the love would fate away. There was a report that love could only be held for few months in a science way. Isn't it true any way? What a shame if it's true.

Environment or Not

Recently, there is an American cartoon movie showed in the cinema. That's "The Simpsons Movie". Some of you might found it stupid and said "God, I'm an adult. How would I go to watch a cartoon in the cinema?" As a teenage, I would say the same words but I was still attracted by the trailer. The trailer is real funny. I just thought it would definitely be a great away to relax.
This cartoon is kinda sarcastic. It just talked about the nowadays' environmental problems and how the government turn a blind eye on those issues and our selfish acts of course. Isn't it the time for all of us to think before taking a step?
In Hong Kong, the environment problems are getting serious each day. The government just kept trying their best to do the city development. While the development, did they really care about the environment especially for our very own Victoria Harbour? Someday, this harbour might eventually becomes a myth. No one could ever find a tract of its existence. Is that what we want? The government is right about the development in some ways but the better reconstruction of the old town and the control of immigration from the mainland China could definitely help a lot in these issues.

Career or Not

Rececing a msg from a friend, I started to think that am I really wanna be a business woman who are real independant. I think the answer is No.
Which gurl don't wanna have a sweet boyfriend who always stays by her side no matter what. Having someone who love you so and willing to provide anything you need. Such a perfect life. I would choose to become a woman behind the husband if I could find someone like that.
Anyway, who's perfect? Frankly, Money is always a better company rite? You can trust it and it provide anything you need. Choosing Finance as my major becuz I wanna gain some more money so that I can fulfill my dream to do some art and something like that in the rest of my life. Marry money should be the best choice!!!!!!!

Depressed or Not

It rained the day when I got my HKCEE result. The rain of depressed. I don't really know how my feeling was. Only thing I knew was my failure. I failed to fulfill my dream, my mum and myself. I was pretty complex.
Yesterday, 2 years later, another group of students got their result, and passed the important way in their life journey. My sister was one of them. It didn't rain that morning. The sky was just grey and the cloud was thick. It was the first time to get the HKCEE result as a older sister but I was much worried than 2 years ago. I thought that she could get a bright result, so sad I was wrong. That night, there was a terrible rain. Everyone was depressed by the rain.
Maybe god is just making us a fool. We fight for ourselves, our future. All we can have is that sadness in the end.

Dream or Not

The more I grow up, the more I love art. I love it in the form of music and writing. I got a dream. It's to put my interest in the first place during my life journey like many people did. Instead of having dreams, I found there are only few lucky one could do so if you couldn't chance on the rite place, rite time and a rite interest with enough capital of course. I'm sort of giving it up already until I chanced on Chris having a show in a mall with his band. No doubt, they just made me remember how much I crave my dream.
Maybe I had given up so many chance or maybe I just don't know how to get my chance. So many maybe. I do believe that not everyone could be that lucky. Sometimes, we just dont have a choose.

Jealous or Not

Early morning, a lot of couples went to work together. It was so sweet to just look at them. Am I jealous about it? I don't know. I was just wondering wt if "my cup of tea" was there next to me. Would the other get jealous?
Every girl wants to be with their date anytime but what if everyone is in pair, what would make them notice how lucky they are?They would just take their love for granted. It's weird, isn't it? Without any comparison, who would know that and treasure the moment they have? Suddenly I just think that single people like myself do play an important role too! Why jealous?

Better or Not

For all of us, teenagers, we might always think that it would be better to be somebody's son or daughter. We would always think that our friends have a better parents, better living condition and which would lead to a better life eventually. I have the same thought too. Living in my own place, I've never found myself. I could never be good enough for my dad. I'm such a bad sheep for my own family for him but he had never thought that he was the real bad sheep. I just don't want to depend on him and give him an excuse that I couldn't do anything without him. Most of my friends think that I have a kool family and I could have almost everything I want and they are wrong. Anyway, who could really know the others' life without really getting into it?

Alone or Not

Isn't it weird for me to want to be left alone? It's good to be left alone sometimes. I could have the space to think about the impossible. Of course, who really want to be alone all the time. I do think that god is playing with me, I mean there is always something bothering me whenever I want to be alone but there is always no one around whenever I need a company.

Relationship or Not

It's weird when I was talking with a fd about her relationship. Knowing the others' little secret of romance made me sad I guess. I don't know why, maybe because of my own "romance" life. It's sarcastic. People ask me, who don't even know what love is, for advise on their love life.

I got a weird feeling lately. I mean I just feels like standing in the middle of no where. No one ever cares. Everyone got this feeling maybe, but it's getting stronger and stronger. Going down the street, hanging around in a mall... I just feel that loneliness is following me around. It's terrible.
I didn't afraid of being alone but I'm now. Really! Is it becuz I am really getting older or I'm a little bit homesick? Coming up with the conclusion, relationship between ppl would be broken simply becuz of the distance. I'm not meaning that I've lost all of my fds. I know they would be there for me. I just... I think I'm falling apart in many ways.