Love/ Habit

We fall in love, we fall out of love and we fall all over again. Sometimes we fall so hard that we can't even control ourselves or sometimes we become numb and take everything for granted. What if we find out that 3 magical words were just spoken out of habit one day and the whole thing of Love is just a lie?

When we were little, we learned to say "I love u". We said it to our family, friends or whatsoever. Getting older, we usually just end up saying it too much or too chicken to spit it out. How can it be possible that we are so afraid of saying these words as a grownup if you really mean it? Anyway we just do. On the other head, we just use it too often and no one would really take it seriously. How can we tell the difference between love and love out of habit?

Chinese? HKers? C'mon. They are not the same!

I was asked why I hated China so much since I'm obviously a Chinese myself. Maybe because of my relative issues or maybe it's because of the communist things. What can I say? Blame UK for giving Hong Kongers too much freedom and allowing us to think out of this "China is the BEST country ever" box. I'm glad that I wasn't born and raised as a patriot. I mean jeez I didn't even know how to sing the Chinese national anthem till 1997. I still can't remember the whole song anyway.

Living in Hong Kong for this 21 year, I see how things have changed. I see how people moving because Hong Kong was given back to China. I see how people still wanna leave Hong Kong because of the "one country two systems" bullshit. I see how the economy turned into hell. Mainland Government is just trying to manipulate the HK Government. Well, I suck at politic. I think I'm just getting the feeling that it's kinda the right thing for people to stand up against Donald Tsang. It's obvious that all he does is kissing the Chinese Government's ass. Come on! So much money was donated to the Mainland every single year and the Government suddenly became broke when it comes to saving the HKers?

I don't hate China like some of the Chinese hates Japanese. For me, those are what we call histories. Why let ourselves haunted by the past? Fine, you could get the Japanese to apologize for what they have done, so what? People are dead! Nothing could bring them back. Time goes by, it's the moment for a change. We study History to learn about the past and stop making the same mistake all over again, not re-ensure which side we should take. Taiwan is a part of China or not. I don't fucking care. Why bothers fighting over? Is there any prize for initiating World War III?

Until now, I'm still refering myself as Hong Konger not Chinese. Don't judge.

Marriage vs Life

"I wanna get married when I'm 20 something and have kids before 30, my goal is to be a housewife." it seems to become the thought of the day. My girl friends are obviously going through some pretty intense boy-hunts these days. If you told me you have this thought like 3 years ago, I'd have called you pathetic. Getting older, I guess I kinda get the reason for that even I'm not agree with the whole getting-married-is-my-life-goal thing. After all, life's hard. Still if it's really necessary to put a deadline on getting married? Does marriage really can't co-exist with other dreams?

For me, there are 2 types of girls who would die for marriage. The very first one is being-married-and-be-a-desperate-housewife type. This kinda girl tend to be busy looking for the one who is willing to take care of her for the rest of her life so that she could stay at home and take care of her kids like every single day. They are doing that mainly because they are sick of their boring jobs and wanna find a shelter. Well, of cause the second type would be the happily-married type. She is crazy in love and wanna tell everyone that she has found the one.

Please don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that people shouldn't get married. I just don't agree with some of reasons for people to get married. All I'm trying to say is why we have to do it in a hurry and make it sounds like marriage is everything. I still find it sad for some who wanna give up your own life to be a housewife. Come on! It's 2009! Women can be independent. Getting marriage is about having the world to witness your commitment not I-could-finally-quit-my-job-and-stay-at-home-forever.

It's not that I don't believe in marriage because I do. Everyone believe in marriage at some point and wanna broadcast that "we are so madly in love". I believe in marriage. I believe in happy ending. It just needs time to decide where I wanna spend mine.